Caught between an abyss and a hard place
Feeling trapped by emotional appeal.
Two to three, two to three,
Running through my head.
Caught between truth and reality
Wanting more than statistical standards.
Two to three, two to three,
Just a number, not even a name.
Caught between choosing a trigger and a pill
Which is easier to deal with.
Life or death, life or death,
Seeing no grey, only black and white.
Caught between yelling a whisper and whispering a scream
Wanting anyone to notice me.
Life or death, life or death,
Wondering which one I’d be found in first.
Caught between fighting the good fight and giving up
Calculating numbers in my head.
Breathe in breathe out, breathe in breathe out,
When waiting on hope is sucked in with every breath.
Caught between sparing your feelings and sparing my life
Making sure only the right emotions leak out.
Breathe in breathe out, breathe in breathe out,
Trying not to ruin everyone’s life, but mine.
Caught between getting help consciously and subconsciously
Molding each sign into my life.
One cut two tears, one cut two tears,
Streaming sweat down my sleeved evidence.
Caught between your lies and my lies
Always learning which to listen to and believe.
One cut two tears, one cut two tears,
Black under my eyes like liquid proof of the wrong decision.
Caught between doing the right thing and living life obliviously
Learning of the girl behind you for the first time.
One word one look, one word one look,
Just a glance and back to the safety of the known.
Caught between being cool and standing out
Noticing she’s different, yet realizing she’s spunky.
One word one look, one word one look,
Saving a life that was so far gone.
Caught between teaching and learning
Standing up for the weak hearted.
One day, one week, one month, one year,
Seeming to make a hint of difference.
Caught between changing the world and going back to being ignorant
Saying hi to everyone, a new person each day.
One day, one week, one month, one year,
Smiles blooming out of new faces every second.
Willow
